argh

to explain fully, i would have to write an essay, with a theme, and proper flow (transitions), and maybe even a thesis. that would take organization and planning. i would probably even make an outline first. i don't feel like doing that for my blog. is it worth all that to explain to those of you who are "just" my blogreaders? of course, it is a lot to assume that those of you who are my friends in real life know where i'm coming from and what i'm doing on the blog(s) too. but at least i could just call you up and tell you. or bring a movie and a pie over to your place and know that you probably already get it, because you're a smart person. or i could write it for me, and for the sake of writing it, as an exercise. yet another exercise. which is the whole point of the whole blog in the first place. or. i could write it because it is the truth, and it tells the truth, and that is what is truly best for everyone in the grand scheme of things. aw, man. i just created myself another responsibility.