sultry

and a voice
that is dark
like tinted glass

every time i catch a cold
just after my nose and posterior naso/oropharynx are affected
just before i start coughing and wheezing
for just a few hours i have that sultry jazz alto i've always wanted
but will never have for real because i do not smoke.

sometimes i think if i ever recorded a jazz album i'd have sessions only on those days, in that little window of my URI. unfortunately i have poor pitch control (? altered and inconsistent tension coefficients with usual arytenoidal movements secondary to mucosal inflammation?) when i'm sick so that would never work.

it's kind of amusing because i intend to sing one note and a completely unrelated pitch comes out. then i wonder if that's what it's like not to be able to sing.

it's really too bad because when my voice is healthy i think i sound like a disney singer, all bright and innocent and, well, uninteresting.

ha. whatever.