awkward!

so i show up to the work happy hour last night. two of my workmates are there, as is our "boss".

he introduces me to his guest, who is a matchmaker for a living. he looks at me and says, "now don't feel weird about this and take it for what it is." he then turns to his guest and says, "now, of all the fellows who are single, [bunny] here is of the highest quality."

WHAT?

what do you say when your "boss" says something like that? and what of the single fellows that sat on either side of me? awwwwwwk-waaard!

he went on to list some of my past accomplishments. after that, i didn't know what to say or do. so i said, "i have no idea how to respond to that."

he went on some more. "after her interview last year, dr. [r] took her c.v. home, handed it to his daughter, and told her 'this is what your c.v. should look like in several years.'"

at this point i was done. i had no idea what to do with myself. i mean, what do you do?

i was too embarrassed and perplexed to feel flattered.

several hours before that, in the cath lab, i was the only female doc in the room. i stood there in my lead suit, looking around at all these dudes, all wearing wedding rings. i thought about the well-known double standard-- male doctors are prime cuts in the marriage market; female doctors usually have men run away screaming. i thought about it briefly, let out a sigh, and decided to stop thinking about it.

i think these two events reflect off of one another in a way most unpleasant.