i'm not nervous

really, i'm not. i'd tell you if i were. you know i would.

but suddenly i do feel kinda sick. tremulous, weak, almost nauseated but not quite. my heart... hang on, let me check my heart... no, regular rhythm, so it's not because of my heart. and suddenly i have to go to the bathroom. i feel like laying... lying... lay—dangit!... i feel like being horizontal. see, i can't even talk/write.

what's going on? i don't have time for this. i need to iron my outfit.

i haven't ironed in a year (thanks to scrubs. or maybe no thanks to scrubs).