explanations

so. reconciliation?

i am left with an unsettled and plain old unhappy feeling inside me.

i am, as ought anyone who is engaged in conflict, attempting to understand the other point of view.

maybe the line of thought goes like this?

"i reproduced. my offspring is purposed to be the victim of my evil thoughts and deeds. it is the nature of inheritance."

nah.

maybe,

"i was here first. therefore my evil, as precedent, is actually righteousness."

getting closer.

"i dislike you greatly. but no matter how many times i tell you so, no matter what i do or how i feel, you're supposed to think and believe and acknowledge that i love you, because by definition i am supposed to love you. this definition does not obligate me to love you, but it obligates you to believe i love you."

now that one is interesting.

so as you can see, i'm having some trouble understanding the other side.

but no one can say i'm not trying.