surely not

surely not everyone
fights this way
so consistently
so heartbreakingly meaninglessly
against the ones who are supposed to love them most

surely not always
does reconciliation come
only with lies and false promises

surely not always
does righteousness feel like failure
does self-esteem feel like debt
does freedom feel like guilt

surely not always
does the innocent bear the blame
does familiarity breed contempt
does hatred dwell in heart and hearth

will this damned, damnable enmity
last for an earthly lifetime
only to be ended by a sudden separation
as heaven from hell?

all that to say
i feel as though i've just struck a deal with the devil.

so. reconciliation?