soy un perdedor

really.

i'm falling apart.

i have been so distracted (or sleep-deprived?) that i have done weird stupid things over the past 36 hrs.

i messed up singing my solos at church this morning. a little. it is still bugging me. a little.

when making dinner from a box (bad enough), i dumped in the wrong packet (even worse) and let simmer for 7 minutes prior to noticing i'd done it wrong.

i was way overly nice to icky-guy, i think i may have used the words "totally sweet" completely out of context because i was trying to escape.

i missed claude's birthday party. but this was not on accident; i actually did decide that i would not be functional after staying awake for 27 hrs, sleeping for three, and then getting back up.

twice i missed the phone today because i couldn't find either handset; they were calls from old med school friends. dangit.

and

i forgot to zip up my fly. twice.

yikes. just yikes.