hi there

here i am, folks.

and i'm in a bloggy state of mind.

i'm a little bit older now, having turned that round corner of a zero ending the number thirty.

and still i'm the same person, and learning just how much that person i still am. so much so that i feel younger than i used to.

i've discovered my insecurity, wrapped like a blanket around me, and am contemplating just what i should do with it, knowing that it has its utility in my life and in making me a better person.

i am learning truths i've always known.

i am really, really busy all the time. at least, i like to think so.

my hair is long again.

so far our little musical group has gotten together twice.

i am tired of dealing with crap, and fighting momentous battles, and am wondering what has to happen in my professional life to allow my personal life to begin.

i have a vault of unposted blog entries i should share with you, but that would be a little contrived, or would it?

i haven't bought any new fabulous shoes since the last time we talked. just a pair of comfort clogs for work.

i would like to take a vacation. but can't 'til october-november or so. but that's okay. because i don't feel as though i have the money to travel appropriately (san diego, london?).

i recently had a truly horrific experience with maggots. yes, maggots.

i think i just may actually truly be the jeans and t-shirt girl i originally suspected i was. last night a group of women and i went to this club, walked directly to the front of the very long line, and were allowed in immediately just because. and it is just so not my scene, high heels and big hair and social smoking and men who can't dance to the beat. blah.

i miss chatting with my cousin ray. hi, ray!

i am recently obsessed with purchasing a swatch watch.

i am learning the portuguese lyrics to "girl from ipanema". right now, as i type. finally. and to think i used to be so digusted by them and by that song in general.

i miss you, my friends.

that's all for now.